A P A P C
Chad -- Los Angeles -- 1989
🙏 probably the best performer ever
"it’s an idiomatic expression"
Words that stuck with me out of the whole conversation I had with you today. You kept running around in circles, using the same reasoning to make your point valid when it was understood the first time. Trying my best to make my words as clear as possible, but I guess they’ll either stay cloudy due to my inability to choose the right words to describe my thoughts or your stubbornness to want to accept what’s truth. Regardless I’ve kept my feelings inside. I’ve held my tongue and just listened quietly, nodding my head in agreement when really inside I was filled with frustration. it is wrong for me to make an attempt to make things right? Is it the right choice to be the bigger person and to simply just accept things the way they are? It’s been 8-9 years since the change in our relationship. We’ve come from yelling at the top of our voices, dramatic attempts at self inflicted injuries to gain sympathy, to an occupied house but a vacant home. To a feeling of disconnect towards one another..
Is it so wrong for me to try and reason my feelings, without being ignored or neglected? I’ve changed to ignore the feeling of emptiness, the feeling of not being accepted by simply because I have a voice. With two doors, your heart only opens one. With two voices you only hear one. I honestly don’t know what to do anymore where it’s gone to a point where I’ve lost my relationship with two people. I don’t know anymore if keeping what I truly feel about this is the right thing anymore. I’ve tried to grow to be a better me, in hopes to gain the recognition you said that was all you wanted of me. But now… it doesn’t mean anything.
I’ve given up on all and everything that has to do with you.
Whoarei - Love on Drugs
everything keeps bouncing bouncing
and i just like it raw
and i just wanna love baby
said i just wanna treat you bad
i just wanna treat you
yellin out cut like its a feature