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Chad -- Los Angeles -- 1989
Nelly Furtado -Turn Off The Light (PAPERWATER TRIBUTE)
This song was one of our biggest influences growing up.
When life throws you curveballs there’s only how we react to the present problem at hand, and that will determine our emotions and attitude about it. Sometimes with that being said, I still feel it’s difficult to give myself a choice in my reaction. That sometimes my mind reacts in ways that naturally happen kind of like a reflex of some sort. As of lately I’m not too sure why, but quite a bit has been slapped in my face and some I know are simple things that I know was just an honest mistake. I’ve been letting the issues build up inside me, my mind felt like a balloon about to pop. But I guess I’m really trying to have a more beneficial reaction to all of it… By rekindling my old relationship with my brother helped give me a voice of reason to some of my problems. Although his problem, came to my benefit, I know I shouldn’t allow our bond to be diminished so it won’t turn out that way.
But having him back as someone I can talk to again, really alleviates some of my mind of never ending thoughts about “what, why, who and when..” I’ve always been the one to always have something on my mind.. It’s very difficult for me to have a clear head. But when having a long conversation with my brother over the phone as I worked the wee hours of my graveyard shift he was able to help give some helpful advice. It helped me feel more positive knowing I have a mentor like him again.
As far as relieving myself of all my stress and worries? I can honestly say It’s still a work in progress, but hey at least I’m moving forward from this. I’ve learned it’s important not to shrug every unresolved problem to the side because it will only build up and reach a limit until it burst. That it’s important to vent out at times or really discover what works out for you in order to transfer whatever negative energy into something beneficial.
With all that said.. I honestly can say I still feel stressed, and burdened with something I can’t put my tongue on. And sometimes it’s difficult when you have no ears to hear you out. All I’m trying to do is just figure out how to react the right way, when life throws you those curveballs.
“Sunshine all the time makes a desert”
I read that and maybe thought it meant that maybe it’s not such a bad thing that life isn’t all good. That possibly the reason some problems arise, is because it’s going to benefit us in some way, and I guess we just have to be patient.
🙏 probably the best performer ever